Posted by Jess
In the search to find a blogging outlet that best fit me, I’ve had (and still have) accounts across many services. LiveJournal, my oldest, has became mostly “fandom”, which is only one part of my life or online activities. InsaneJournal is my circle for those who I create cooperative fiction with, but still not the whole of what I do or who I am. Even on WordPress, I’ve tried and failed a few times to find an identity that was me, rather than something I grew bored with in a few months when my interests drew me down another path. As a name, “onlydrawnbad” has been my own in various ways for some time now, a shout out to an animated femme fatale I share a name and large breasts with, but not a lot else (though I suppose Husband Boy would look cute in rabbit ears). I’m definitely Not That Bombshell, but catch me on a bad day and I might just decide a frying pan has a greater appeal than its kitchen functions.
Eventually, I archived this or that from other blogs to here, but I never found the right way to start this blog as a record of all that I am, rather than just one dimension. Even after I realized there wasn’t a right way to start it, I was still stuck. Draft upon draft of potential posts still idle in my mobile phone in aborted snippets and paragraphs, waiting to be finished and live as one of the myriad pieces of me.
If I wait for the right time, I’ll never start. If I wait for the right story, this space will remain empty. So here I am, during a month where those around me are in a frenzy to unleash 50,000 + words into the world, with one simple (or not-so-simple, only time will tell) goal: write every day and fill this with whatever comes to me. Perhaps in that eclectic presentation, I’ll find a space that finally fits me.